Life in Public Watch...

After working for few days there finally there I found the team spirit that I looking for... Although is different from Yea but I think is time for me to know people that out of my world... I like meeting new people because from them I will know the "type" of person in this world... I will took everything I learn as new experience... I don't like to act pro but I always got that kind of attitude... The biggest challenge in this company is "the danger of society"... Well I doesn't mean that I always right but I knew too many "dangerous human"... Hope I didn't think too much cause I do believe that in this world there is still people who treat others with their hearts...

By the way there is two new comers today... I try to avoid myself to get close to one of them because I doesn't hope another case 5639 happens...  Let this incident pass and leave my life forever...  

13/12/13
Another tiring day~

New job after my Form 6

My STPM examination ends last week so is time for work... Well seriously didn't think that I will work at this place... I work at a watch shop as a sales executive now... At first I was planning to find a job that related to F&B but too bad... None of them is giving me a chance... :P

Maybe this is faith... No more working in F&B??  Haiz... Although is just first day working but I feel really uncomfortable... No one can talk to like where I used to work... Seriously I miss Yea... Miss those crazy moment in Yea... Our friendship which is close like family... The moment we eat ice cream after briefing the moment I know what is team work... Now I just saw what is "WORK"!! in my company...

I don't really like this job... It makes me feel stressed...

Langkawi trip... (26/9/2013 - 28/9/2013)

September, A new memory had born...

I went to a school trip before facing my STPM examination...
At first I thought it will be going to be a bored trip because one of the teacher which going with us used to be someone who really strict but somehow we have so much fun...

Those pictures are some of the memories...

First Day...

Luggage of 5 people... O.O

Line up for ferry...

When we are there... 

First time had a ride on speed boat... 

This is what happen when we saw someone cute... :D

Me and Ainun...

Second Day...

Trying to act cool in the morning after breakfast... xD

Act cute time... *seems doesn't go well* :P

Peace... :D

Island hopping... #by boat again... :3

Our expression after hiking in the rain... *Total wet*

Our Group in boat... xD

Last Day... :)

The eagle...

Girls...

Is time to go home...

In Ferry...

That's my trip... I took one month to post it cause really busy recently.. xD

My another Volleyball match in Penang sport tournament... (27/8/2013)

Another memory of me in Munshi is created... Today we are joining the sports tournament. It was separated into four types of games and of course my choice was volleyball cause I love it... xD  The tournament is announced during the day before the match... So we don't really have time to practice. Since it was rush everything is quite pack including our jersey and so on.

There are 10 students in a team and teacher drives us to the venue. So there are two car heading to the venue. This is where everything start, First we went to the wrong venue of the tournament. Then, when we moving to the right venue one of our teacher lost their way. (=.=") So we reach late but the game haven't start so we spare the time by helping our lost teacher and teammates. Finally they are here but we don't have time to warm up cause the match has started. So we end up lost the first game. My leg also injured cause I felt during dig the ball.

Everything goes well on the second match maybe is because of we just finish our breakfast?? *hahax... LOL* So we manage to fight back on the second match. so make it draw. We didn't manage to make up till final but is Okay I am happy with it... :D

#I just love volleyball no matter what...# 

Future?? Still there??

Since the school days start my life is a mess again.... I stop thinking nonsense but now I thinking about my future. I feel fed up with my this semester exam... Seriously after I count my pointer, I notice that if I wanted to enter an University I have to score all A solid in this semester and including my repeat paper... This is a mission impossible for me... I can't even pass my economic how could I get an A?? Is totally hopeless... I tried to study but I can't remember anything that related to economic... My BM I had lost my confidence on it... Since I missed my A last semester, my confidence all gone... I feel myself getting more and more useless...

Everyone is getting better in their life, but me?? Is getting worse....

I really hope I can cry out loud... At least it will makes me feel better but I had lost the ability to cry...
I can't even drop my tears... This is the most suffering part...

Ps* In this moment I really wish there is someone beside me... Which I can hug "you" tightly and "you" will tell me... "I am here so all will be okay..."*

August... The End of my holidays...

Middle of August means holiday is going to end very soon. This holiday really calmed me down. I think a lot about all sort of thing and it makes me realize that thinking too much of nonsense will ruined your day. I should just ignore everything that I dislike and enjoy my remaining school days because I know I will miss it when I left this school.

Time won't erase everything from your heart but it will makes you feel better. As time go on, I think my feeling toward you has changed. My heart won't really feel hurt when I saw news feed about you in Facebook. The memories of us also won't pops up during I feel alone. Believe me... Those memories are the most valuable treasure for me. We didn't really talk much recently but I know you are having a very good life... I know our relationship won't back to the past but do remember that I am still your very true friend... :)

Ps* I know this might be long way to go... But I know I can bring you out from my heart...~*
To: Somebody...*

July... The month that I lose everything...

This month just doesn't go well. First I receive the news that you couple with someone... I feel happy for you but somehow deepest part in my heart you gone... I feel down for a moment but later on I feeling better which makes me feel maybe god is giving me another change... Okay then school... I used to be someone who always alone... The human that called friends is there but they just there not to share... Someone that willing to talk to me is getting lesser... I know this will happen... I always know it... I just been using all the time... You will snatch my them from me like previous time and act like you are innocent...  Ya... You are good... Good in saying sorry... What is the point u saying sorry after the matters that you have create??  Let me take a knife stab you and tell you that I am sorry... How was it?? Will it still fine?? Fuck off... I don't need your sorry... Yup.. You may say that I am "small gas" but after been treat like this... Haha... I regret to know you....

15th July
Is my Result Day... I my BM "A" slipped away... I was super down... The subject that I expecting get B+...
My teacher is disappointed to me... I know it... She is also hoping me to get "A" but I let her down... Seriously I feel sorry for her... I really put in effort but it still same... I am sorry teacher... I didn't make you proud... While I am totally frustrated with it here is my dad... He just can't leave me alone while I dying... He have to do something to make me go worse... Thanks to what he did... I lose my ability to cry... I just can keep everything in hear and let it pain...

I hurt a lot because he meant a lot to me... He is my father...  Someone who raised me up but I am sorry to say that "I am disappointed to you dad"... I don't mind if you ignore me but don't slice my heart with your words... It hurts me a lot... It become more suffer when I can't even cry...

"I hope there is one day I will leave you and get my freedom"