This month just doesn't go well. First I receive the news that you couple with someone... I feel happy for you but somehow deepest part in my heart you gone... I feel down for a moment but later on I feeling better which makes me feel maybe god is giving me another change... Okay then school... I used to be someone who always alone... The human that called friends is there but they just there not to share... Someone that willing to talk to me is getting lesser... I know this will happen... I always know it... I just been using all the time... You will snatch my them from me like previous time and act like you are innocent... Ya... You are good... Good in saying sorry... What is the point u saying sorry after the matters that you have create?? Let me take a knife stab you and tell you that I am sorry... How was it?? Will it still fine?? Fuck off... I don't need your sorry... Yup.. You may say that I am "small gas" but after been treat like this... Haha... I regret to know you....
15th July
Is my Result Day... I my BM "A" slipped away... I was super down... The subject that I expecting get B+...
My teacher is disappointed to me... I know it... She is also hoping me to get "A" but I let her down... Seriously I feel sorry for her... I really put in effort but it still same... I am sorry teacher... I didn't make you proud... While I am totally frustrated with it here is my dad... He just can't leave me alone while I dying... He have to do something to make me go worse... Thanks to what he did... I lose my ability to cry... I just can keep everything in hear and let it pain...
I hurt a lot because he meant a lot to me... He is my father... Someone who raised me up but I am sorry to say that "I am disappointed to you dad"... I don't mind if you ignore me but don't slice my heart with your words... It hurts me a lot... It become more suffer when I can't even cry...
"I hope there is one day I will leave you and get my freedom"
