What is the proper way???

I really hope I have the braveness to tell you every things but I don't because I scared I will lost this friendship...... So I don't want to take any risk..... Should I keep myself away from you??? I really worried that some days when I really can't control my emotion and shout it out..... Why is the god keep playing jokes on me??? (>.<")

Luckily I had a friend to share this matter otherwise I really will get crazy...... Thank you my dear friend...... =)